we back

 we back 😀 im sleepy 💥😓

ups and downs

 okay guys so 😊 good news 👀 ive made a friend over the holiday 😁 (bonded over our drinking struggles) 😓 but also my mum keeps on lying to me 😡 which is getting annoying considering the whole deal with the various mental health people is that she doesnt 😑 but its okay cus im back tmw and i have cigarettes 🤤 okay once again guys shit wifi so no ratings BUT TMW THERE WILL BE (extra points if you can guess whos being rated) 😛

save me

 okay this is a nothing burger cus im going insane - everything is driving me crazy and this is making me regret not getting an autism diagnosis - talking to my mum anymore will make me go insane - i keep  on getting asked if im going to the party tonight (WHICH I CANT) - and i am going to die if i cant get any nicotine - thank fuck i had shots for pudding tn or i would go insane

general discomfort

 day 5 no nic and its getting worse again 😔 rock broke under me while climbing and i gashed my leg 😬 but we ball 😛 going out and trying to buy cigs tmw ☝ wish me luck 😌 FINALLY get to sleep in and actually become functional again 👽 we redyeing the hair green cus its getting too faded 💔 all my pirated games are saving me from shitty hotel wifi (especially nubbys number factory) 😇 aswell as all my youtube songs 😍

rating time 💤💤💤

- Mila Moon - Window - i mean idk what genre this even is but its pretty good - 8/10

freedom and recapture

 i was free for a solid hour 😊 and it was beautiful 😌 it gave me enough willpower to socialise for an hour and get myself together 👽 part of this can be seen when i climbed on a digger (click this) 😝 went canyoning but it was actually kind of lame 😔 day 4 of no nic and im feeling better(ish) 😁 we got this guys ☝ i just wanna play pump man 💔 but the group played some card games and it was suprisingly nice 😁

ONE rating cus im tired 💤

- memory card - Living Document - suuuper good album and (imo) one of a kind - memory card does it again - 8/10

- memory card - Hurricane/Consuming Spirits - okay i lied two reviews but hurricane is so amazing that it deserves its own blog - 9/10

dont miss me too much guys 😇

cope + fomo

 day 3 no nic and i LOVE 😍 missing out on the fun stuff at home and i LOVE 😍 being trapped in a room with my mum 👽 i want a cig so bad i was genuinely trying to breath in second hand smoke 👀 its okay tho guys i have plans when i get back 😊 4 more days 👀👀👀 one more icebreaker and i will just die 💔 i wanna go arcade so bad 😖 plus the hotel room is just one room so i cannot escape 😢 BUT we stay positive 😓 even though i have to talk to my mum 😁 okay the complaining will stop soon i promise 😇

ratings 🫩🫩🫩

hahaha you got PRANKED the hotel wifi is so bad i cant even google anything

send help

get me OUT OF HERE

day 2 no nic 😓 this is torture and im dying 😶 we did a big ass hike today but insomnias kicking my butt so im sleepy asf 😥 some of the people in my group are weirdly rich/out of touch (one of them didnt know what a laundromat was???) 👽 and the only thing saving me is ninajirachi 👾 all the icebreakers are hellish and i just want a cigarette 😟 and overwatch 😔 and any substance 😑 its okay tho we ball 

review... 😞

- Maple - ITS CALLED HAVING FUN AND PLAYING - its okay for a man to listen to furry produced music every once in a while right? - 6/10

- Purple Mountains - Purple Mountains - country gets waaay too much hate when stuff like this and johnny cash exist - 7/10

- The Extra Glenns - Martial Arts Weekend - yeah i only started listening to them cus the mountain goats guy is in it so what - 6/10

please hold your cigarettes a little tighter tonight as you appreciate them as much as i am missing them